shallwe_sing

Tue, 05 Jan 2010 08:02:17 GMT

one time, abby told me
"i think that sometimes the universe draws us to where we belong."
now when i'm looking out my hotel window in london with all the buildings sitting on one another i kinda think she was right. i don't feel enclosed so much as i feel...
surrounded.
i think this feels right.

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 23:32:16 GMT

he won't see aly walk at graduation
or walk lauren down the aisle.
he wasn't here to give peter a big high five and make him breakfast on his 6th birthday.
he won't be able to hold lynn's hand when they meet their first grandchild.
and i'll never be able to thank him for being the father i could turn to when i couldn't bear to look at my own.

and it is not fair.

my heart breaks again and again everyday for my family.

aly, i'm sorry that i couldn't say the things that should have been said that night, but i wouldn't have been able to bear seeing you or lynn cry. i would have felt too slefish to cry in front of you. i love you, all of you. god must have a bigger plan for someone that good.

r.i.p. uncle scott
you are loved and missed so, so much.

Tue, 17 Nov 2009 15:58:03 GMT

Breathe in and out, in and out.
Thud, thud, thud, thud.
One foot in front of the other.
Eyes open, eyes shut.
Lay down, look around, analyze.
In and out, in and out.
Thud, thud, thud, thud.
Empty bed, no new messages.
Eyes open, eyes shut.

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 23:33:14 GMT

i have too much to be praying for and too much preservation to beg for to skip mass again.

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 05:47:51 GMT

tonight i decided that i'm pretty.
and i don't give a fuck if you think differently.

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 04:01:09 GMT

so i got my acceptance letter and on January 5 I will be leaving for Ormskirk, Lancashire.
i am terrified.
but someday soon, im going to be too old for adventures.
i'm going to have to worry about a career and a family and bills.
but god, i am ready to get out of here.
this day to day life is wearing me down to the bone.

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 05:55:44 GMT

"you never felt jealousy, did you, miss eyre? of course not; i need not ask; because you never felt love. you have both sentiments yet to experience; your soul sleeps, the shock has yet to be given which shall awaken it."

Sun, 06 Sep 2009 00:50:23 GMT

sometimes i feel so vast.
unfortunately, it also leaves me feeling empty and alone.
for the last few months i guess i've been realizing something that makes me sound detached, but well, i have been for a while now. ive realized exactly how alone we are in the world regardless of all the people you surround yourself with.
and sometimes, you've just gotta be alone.
idk who i am anymore.

Wed, 02 Sep 2009 20:44:32 GMT

gladly.
i'm probably thinking.

anything.
that's my favorite line, i think.

it better be,
i like the sound of that.

days.
oh, i wish you wouldn't.

Thu, 20 Aug 2009 01:52:15 GMT

Oh I tend to disappear here and there
So concentrate and you'll feel me everywhere
And we'll fill the metro skies with country air
If you're lost when you close your eyes I'll meet you there

Wed, 01 Jul 2009 21:39:38 GMT

ooooh idk, i cant out words to anything ive been feeling lately im just so mixed up.
but things are getting better everyday.
thankfully i found someone to help pull me out of this rut.

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 18:26:42 GMT

even today i remember you
from when being "write home" alive was all we knew.

Thu, 28 May 2009 18:37:09 GMT

just know that i looked to the sky and then i looked at your face
and only the latter made me feel infinite.

i miss muh best friend =(

Wed, 20 May 2009 19:35:25 GMT

The thing that I am seeking
I know I shall not find;
A wistful voice is crying
This sorrow in my mind.
I know I shall not find it
However far I go,
But I shall always seek it --
My heart has told me so.

Though I must always wander
I do not find it sweet;
There is no journey's ending
To draw my restless feet.
There is no distant vision
To help me on my way;
I know my quest is hopeless
And yet I may not stay.

The thing that I am seeking
Should not be far to seek.
I hear this haunting echo
Through every word I speak.
So I shall always seek it
Down all the roads I go,
But I shall never find it --
My heart has told me so.

Sun, 10 May 2009 23:43:11 GMT

finals week.
kill me.
or give me swine flu.
whichever.

more poem war with abby

Mon, 04 May 2009 04:37:25 GMT

You ask of me the thing I most would give.
You beg of me a banner and a plume
For one who finds in life a baleful gloom.
You ask me to renew his will to live.
I should be less than honest if I said,
"Lo here! Lo there! The joy of life is found."
Too many ardent lovers now are dead,
Too many kings and seers live uncrowned.
Not in desire sated lies content.
Not in fulfillment is the heart appeased,
But in life's vigor valourously spent
And the soul's triumph from disaster siezed.
The flame of joy burns best in hearts denied.
Remember, Brother, Christ was cruicfied.

poem war

Sat, 02 May 2009 07:46:48 GMT

I am not yours, not lost in you,
Not lost, although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea.

You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright,
Yet I am I, who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light.

Oh plunge me deep in love -- put out
My senses, leave me deaf and blind,
Swept by the tempest of your love,
A taper in a rushing wind.

the quiet world

Tue, 28 Apr 2009 02:26:50 GMT

In an effort to get people to look
into each other's eyes more,
the government has decided to allot
each person exactly one hundred
and sixty-seven words, per day.
When the phone rings, I put it
to my ear without saying hello.
In the restaurant I point
at chicken noodle soup. I am
adjusting well to the new way.
Late at night, I call my long
distance lover and proudly say
'I only used fifty-nine today.
I saved the rest for you.'
When she doesn't respond, I know
she's used up all her words
so I slowly whisper 'I love you'
thirty-two and a third times.
After that, we just sit on the line
and listen to each other breathe.

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 19:18:08 GMT

AHHH!!!! =D =D
i got my room assignment- 818 onodoga wasssupppp.
i have an interview with sweets tomorrow, where i will more than likely get hired.
i have training at my other job on thursday.
and even though my plans for tonight were cancelled AGAIN im having an awesome day.

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 05:57:46 GMT

where does the good go?

Mon, 13 Apr 2009 04:30:12 GMT

i'm so sick of bitching,
so i'm just going to do something about it.
what is "it"?
idk, all of it.

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 00:19:50 GMT

so this is the tattoo that i am going to get.
but where to put it?

elizabeth s. royce

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 03:03:23 GMT

It's summer, and the night is in my blood.
It's June, and all my senses are awake.
This tingling flesh I'd lavish for the sake
Of a tall lover inked against the flood
Of shadeless moonlight washing all the lawn.
How long before the dawn?

All night this unbeloved heart must throb,
These arms, how young and white beneath the glow
Of the wide moon no lover now shall now,
Cry loneliness too lonely for a sob.
Too soon will youth and loveliness be gone.
How long until the dawn?

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 00:19:07 GMT

i feel as if i haven't smiled in ages.

Tue, 10 Mar 2009 04:51:27 GMT

it's easier in the summer.
everything is so bright and beautiful.
it's hard when everything is gray and it's you that needs to shine.