shallwe_sing

Breathe in and out, in and out.
Thud, thud, thud, thud.
One foot in front of the other.
Eyes open, eyes shut.
Lay down, look around, analyze.
In and out, in and out.
Thud, thud, thud, thud.
Empty bed, no new messages.
Eyes open, eyes shut.

i have too much to be praying for and too much preservation to beg for to skip mass again.

tonight i decided that i'm pretty.
and i don't give a fuck if you think differently.

so i got my acceptance letter and on January 5 I will be leaving for Ormskirk, Lancashire.
i am terrified.
but someday soon, im going to be too old for adventures.
i'm going to have to worry about a career and a family and bills.
but god, i am ready to get out of here.
this day to day life is wearing me down to the bone.

"you never felt jealousy, did you, miss eyre? of course not; i need not ask; because you never felt love. you have both sentiments yet to experience; your soul sleeps, the shock has yet to be given which shall awaken it."